Just a quick update :)

YIKES! I haven't blogged in almost a month. Sorry school happens and I just haven't really had the time to. Well, as I said I am using this blog to talk about my experience with God. He never ceases to amaze me, especially when he is trying to grab your attention.

    Here lately, I have been very frustrated. I have tried to make things happen that just aren't happening. I feel as though I should move out and have my own place, and me being unable to had made me bitter. I was pushing my family, and friends away. Needless to say I wasn't joyful to be around. I lost sight of what was important.

   Well, as I said God has a way of grabbing your attention. I went to church for the first time in a few weeks. I was moved by the love I saw, and willing hands I saw to reach out and pray for a family of that church going through a trying time. It really put my life into perspective (again). There are people going through more trying things than me just not being able to move out. To me I felt the Lord tug at my heart then and there to show me I don't have it bad at all, and I just need to get over myself.

   I am healthy, I have a wonderful family, friends, boyfriend. I am able to go to school, and I get to do something I love. I need to learn to keep that in perspective and not let one little thing I don't have get to me. How incredibly selfish of me to be upset about something so small. So, that is what I am working on now, keeping my life in perspective, and being where God wants me to be. Obviously, it is where I am right now. Also, I am working on being unselfish, and only the Lord can help me with that. I will try to blog again soon.

Endless love

I haven't blogged in a while.
Recently, I have been trying to learn to love and trust the Lord, I am new to it. Also, it's hard to wrap your head around the fact that there is someone who will love you no matter what. It's hard to grasp that someone could be so selfless. I know it's stupid to personify God, he isn't an actual person, but he does have feelings right?
   He cares I know that much. Other wise why would he reach out to me.  I have been praying lately that I could learn about Gods love, but recently he answered my prayer through a sermon, of John Strimple this past Sunday at Mallard Point Baptist in Georgetown.
  On a side note, let me just say that church is amazing. I love the close-friendly-family feel. Another blessing being with Brad has brought me. I haven't been too often but every time I go, it is such a close church. People all know each other by name and families. It's not so big people have no idea who enters their church. I love that it's small but it's a congregation of good people serving the Lord. Kids grow up in the church, Brad is one of them. I think that is AMAZING. 
  Back to the sermon, he talked about how we will never grasp how much God loves us, and even when we think we know,  we don't. I think that was an answer to my prayer of how to love God. I will never understand how much he loves me. There is no spefic way to love him either. Just try and try and trust he has a plan for me, and I don't have to try and control everything.
THAT is a scary for me, but I think it was something I needed to learn. So right now, I am trying to learn more, and study more about the word of God. Also, learn to let him guide me in life. Even if it isn't something I want to do. :)